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What People Say I Can Do

Take a guess.

I have no idea why I start this post with that.

Okay, let's get started like really started.

Just like probably any normal people out there, I don't think I have a talent in anything. I don't think even my mom can say what my talent is. It's like I can do some stuffs, but I'm not especially good at those stuffs.

For example, I can cook, but God knows how odd those foods tastes and looks like. I can also sing, kind of. I mean I get accepted to choirs in middle school and high school that actually have a test to get in. I also got this huge production in elementary with professional directors and stuffs as part of the choir (though it was probably because I wasn't good enough in acting and dancing, the two other parts that available). But then again, even my mom banned me from singing at home, saying that if I want to sing, I have to do it properly and I have already done it as best as I can.

Yeah, those stuff really made me sad at one time, and probably many other time. Oh, I also have zero leadership skills. I can't make a decision because I was too afraid that that decision would harm the whole team. I can't even decide for myself because most of my decision harmed myself. People tried their best not to pick me when we're voting for leader or class reps and stuff. That is probably why I don't have the confident to apply as student council or any other organization at school. I also can't express myself well since I have this lisp and I tend to talk really fast and people wouldn't understand what I'm saying.

Basically stuffs that bring your confident down to the drain. But it's alright, I'm used to all that stuff anyway.

I'm a sucker for compliments. So when I do something and people doesn't give me compliment about it, then I'm gonna think that I'm no good at that stuff. But that has been proven by 95%. So yeah, I've already accepted the fact that the only person who'll probably always compliment myself is me. Probably I cursed myself the most to, ironically.

Anyway, I'm gonna be talking about what some people say I'm good at. Writing.

I think I have mentioned it somewhere I don't know, or most probably haven't, I like a good story. And I writes too. I wrote many things. Fanfiction or just fiction, long story or oneshot, I've written all that and some people actually said that they are pretty good (though I'm pretty sure it was just a token of kindness or I'm just a very negative person or it was just everything in between).

People has actually asked me to write stuffs for them. I even ghost wrote a few stories for my friends' assignment. It was okay, I guess.

But even though people say that I'm good at writing, I don't think I'm that good. There are still a bunch of my friends who are better than me. One has a straight forward style and the other has this really good story development and plot. While me? I don't really have any idea what I'm writing half of the time. While these friends already has an idea for their next story, I most don't know how to end a story.

I guess that's just who I am. I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone including myself. I'll just try my best to survive with what I have. I'm also going to practice and practice and practice really hard to push myself to the limit.

Yeah, that's, at least, what I intend to do.

That's all.

Bye <3

p.s. if you have any requests, please just leave a comment in the bottom with your wanted characters and/or plot

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